These Dreams

These dreams go on when I close my eyes, every second of the night, I live another life…

I’ve had odd dreams before, but this is the first time in a while that it’s been vivid enough for me to remember the details of it. If you’ve been a reader of my old blogs, you’d probably remember me dreaming from back in my high school, college and early working days of this “mystery guy” in glasses. For my first time readers, in high school I dreamt I went to prom with the guy in glasses. I can’t see his face, I just remember him being taller than me and wearing glasses. In college, I dreamt of the same guy again, this time we brought home a new baby boy. During my early years as a fresh grad/new employee I had a dream of him again. It was always the same guy, taller than me with glasses and the same smell (perfume or soap, not quite sure). I once thought I met this guy for real back in ’03 but that sizzled and burned after a while so he’s probably not the guy (if he ever exists anyway).

But I digress. What I really wanted to talk about was a recent vivid dream I had. This is of a former flame: in my dream I ran into him at a supermarket and found out he had a son, a special child. We ended up talking and catching up with me holding the child’s hand while we walked. The kid even ran away at one point with me catching up with him and I decided to carry him in my arms so he wouldn’t let go.

That dream kept bugging me for days so I finally decided to look at a couple of dream analysis websites and this is what I discovered: the child in my dreams represents me and my inner child (as well as my creative side). As we all know our dreams are our subconscious’ way of telling us things we need to know and for me, my dream was telling me to hold on to my inner child and to not let it get away from me. Considering how frustrated I am with how serious life has been these past ten years and how I have not made use of my creative side as much as I would like, that interpretation made sense.

According to the same site that gave me the inner child interpretation, my former flame also represents something. The site said that the qualities that I saw in this guy are the qualities that I would like to find in myself. Again, this was something that makes complete sense considering how it was that guy that set the bar really high for me in terms of deciding on a future partner in life. I guess my subconscious is just saying, if that’s what you want, be prepared to be like that as well. As Iyanla Vanzant once said on The Oprah Winfrey Show, “Be the beloved.”

It’s interesting the things you can find on the internet sometimes right? My dream analysis gave me something to ponder on for the next few days.

I had another dream recently that had basketball player Chris Tiu in it. That did not make sense (I don’t even watch basketball or his TV show) and I couldn’t find any interpretation for it but I did stumble onto his blog and found this entry on chastity that I really liked and would like to share with all of you. I think it’s a very good read. You can check it out here.

The dreams I have are usually very weird (I blame my insane imagination for that one) but as soon as I wake up and get on with my day I tend to forget the details. Maybe I should start a dream diary; they might make for some really good concepts for my writing projects in the future. What do you think?

Every moment I’m awake, the further I’m away…